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• "It Felt Dangerous to Hope" -- Siobhan Koch on Losing Her Daughter Talitha and the Journey to Her Rainbow Baby

  Siobhan Koch’s journey to motherhood spanned over a decade of infertility, foster parenting, adoption, and finally the miraculous unassisted pregnancy of her daughter, Talitha. In this sacred and heart-shattering episode, Siobhan shares the story of her waters breaking at 18 weeks, Talitha’s birth and brief life, and the trauma and beauty interwoven through her loss. She also opens up about becoming pregnant again by surprise, navigating the intense anxiety of pregnancy after loss, and how she and her family honour Talitha while raising her two brothers.   We talk about: 12 years of infertility and unexpected adoption of her son Paul Becoming pregnant with Talitha after years of fertility treatments Premature rupture of membranes at 18 weeks and the waiting game that followed Talitha’s birth, the sacred hour she spent alive, and saying goodbye Postpartum hemorrhage and trauma recovery Navigating deep grief while parenting an older child The surprise rainbow pregnancy with Silas and its intense anxiety Learning to hope again and finding support through loss Honouring Talitha daily and integrating her memory into family life   This episode is tender, raw, and full of hope— a reminder that grief and joy can coexist, and that every baby’s story matters. 🕊   Get to Know Siobhan: Siobhan Koch lives in Hamilton, Ontario, with her husband and two sons, Paul and Silas, while holding close the memory of their daughter Talitha. She is a former foster mom, adoption mama, and runs a charity building tiny homes for vulnerable communities. 📷 Instagram: @siobhan.koch   Connect with Kristin: Website: thedoulalife.ca 🌈 The Haven (Pregnancy After Loss Support Program): thedoulalife.ca/the-haven — use promo code: RAINBOW to save $100 🕊 Mother Like No Other community: thedoulalife.ca/mother— use promo code: MOTHER to save 50% off your first month 📷 Instagram: @the.doula.life   If this episode resonates, please subscribe, rate, and share—it helps get these stories into the hands of the women who need them most.

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• “Oliver Will Get Them Here” — Sarah Herron on IVF, Loss, and the Journey to Mothering Twins

  Sarah Herron shares the deeply moving story of her son Oliver, conceived through IVF, and the heartbreaking moment she had to say goodbye. In this powerful conversation, Sarah walks us through the shock of infertility, the devastation of loss, and the sacred ways Oliver’s spirit continues to guide her. She also shares the emotional, high-risk journey of carrying twins after loss, their early arrival at 32 weeks, and what it means to step into motherhood with grief, gratitude, and resilience. We talk about: - Navigating infertility, IVF, and a diminished ovarian reserve diagnosis - The pregnancy and loss of her son, Oliver, at 25 weeks - Moving through postpartum grief, guilt, and spiritual searching - Choosing IVF again and discovering she was pregnant with twins - The anxiety and milestones of pregnancy after loss - Her daughters’ premature birth and NICU stay - The tension between grief and joy, and how Oliver remains present in her motherhood - Parenting twins while navigating physical disability and societal perceptions - The gifts, strength, and perspective loss brought to her life and marriage This episode is a tender, vulnerable reminder that love and grief are forever intertwined— and that it can be a portal in becoming a more compassionate and loving human. 🕊 Oliver, this one is for you. Get to Know Sarah Internationally recognized as “Sarah Herron from The Bachelor,” Sarah is more intimately known as an adventure enthusiast and IVF warrior. She has used the platform she gained from reality TV to build both virtual and real-life communities for women walking vulnerable spectrums of life—disability, infertility, pregnancy loss, grief, and now, motherhood to one-year-old twin girls. Sarah is the founder of the nonprofit SheLift, the virtual support group The Infertile Circle, and the hiking collective Tents Without Gents. Her work continues to inspire and uplift women navigating complex and courageous paths. 🌐 Learn more at walkwithme.org 📸 Instagram: @sarahherron Connect with Kristin 📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca 🌈 The Haven — Pregnancy After Loss Support Program: thedoulalife.ca/haven 🕊 Mother Like No Other -- TTC Community: thedoulalife.ca/mother 📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life If you enjoyed this episode of the podcast, please don’t forget to subscribe, rate and review—it helps get the show and these stories into the hands of the women who need them most. And share it with someone who could use this kind of support. Your support means so much.

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• “All I Wanted Was to Hold My Baby” — Amanda’s Story of Iona, Home Birth, and Pregnancy After Loss

  In this deeply moving episode, Amanda shares the sacred and heart-shattering story of her daughter, Iona. She takes us inside her beautiful home birth, the unimaginable loss that followed, and her journey through grief, healing, and now pregnancy after loss.   We talk about:   - The joy of being pregnant with Iona and choosing a home birth - The beauty of her 25-hour labor and the shock of losing her daughter - Facing judgment and misunderstanding after a home birth loss - Navigating postpartum grief, isolation, and honoring Iona - Rituals and ways Amanda connects with her daughter - The hope, fear, and love of pregnancy after loss   This episode is a tender, courageous reminder that grief and love can coexist—and that our babies remain part of our families forever.   Iona, this one is for you 🕊   Get to Know Amanda: Amanda lives in the mountains of Mendocino County, Northern California, with her husband Leonello and their two pups. Before her loss, she worked at a pottery studio and loved baking sourdough. Now, she and Leonello spend their days tending fruit trees, caring for their old homestead, and walking the creek that runs through the land where Amanda grew up. Since losing her daughter Iona, she has found comfort in nature—especially swimming in ponds, creeks, and lakes nearby. At nearly 32 weeks pregnant after loss, Amanda is taking time to slow down, be present, and honour this tender journey. Her wish for other loss mothers is that they know they are never alone, and that connection and community can be found. 📸 Instagram: @amandakatz   Connect with Kristin: 📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca 🌈 The Haven – Pregnancy After Loss Support Program: thedoulalife.ca/the-haven – use promo code RAINBOW to save $100 on enrollment 🕊 Mother Like No Other community - thedoulalife.ca/mother 📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life   If this episode resonated with you, please subscribe, rate, and share—it helps get these stories into the hands of the women who need them most.

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• “The Best Possible Chance” — Danielle’s Story of Early Onset Preeclampsia, Loss, and a New Surrogacy Journey

  Danielle shares the sacred, heart-shattering, and hopeful story of her two children, Carter and Mackenzie, both lost to early-onset preeclampsia. In this deeply moving episode, she takes us through the shock of her first loss, the traumatic birth experience that followed, and the healing moments she found when holding her daughter, even for just a short time. Danielle also opens up about her decision to stop carrying pregnancies, her journey into surrogacy, and the beautiful ways she continues to honor both of her children. We talk about: Experiencing early-onset preeclampsia in both pregnancies The day she couldn’t find her son’s heartbeat and knew something was wrong Navigating a traumatic D&E and the grief of not seeing her son The bittersweet gift of holding her daughter for an hour before she passed How Mackenzie’s birth brought a measure of peace after Carter’s loss The decision to pursue surrogacy and what that process has been like Building a deep connection with their surrogate and feeling excitement about pregnancy again The traditions they keep each year to honor Carter and Mackenzie Why continuing to check in with loss parents months and years later matters so much This episode is a tender, powerful reminder that grief and hope can live side by side—and that parenthood can take many different, beautiful forms.  🕊️ Carter and Mackenzie, this one is for you.   Get to Know Danielle: Danielle Kipp is a registered nurse, military spouse, and proud mom to two angel babies. Caring for pregnant women has long been one of her professional passions, but after walking through two high-risk pregnancies and losses of her own, it became a true labor of love. With a special place in her heart for the infant loss community, Danielle hopes her journey helps create space for connection and hope for those who need it most.   Connect with Danielle: Instagram:  Connect with Kristin: 📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca 🌈 The Haven – Pregnancy After Loss Support Program: thedoulalife.ca/haven — use promo code: RAINBOW to save $100 on enrollment 🤍 Mother Like No Other Community: www.thedoulalife.ca/mother 📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life If you enjoyed this episode of the podcast, please don’t forget to subscribe, rate, and review—this helps get the show and resources mentioned into the hands of the women that need them! And please share it with someone who could use this kind of support. Your support means so much.

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• “I Didn’t Think It Would Happen to Me” – A Stillbirth Story of Love, Pregnancy after Loss, and Honouring Keelan

  Lin Yuan opens her heart to share the story of her son Keelan, born still at 38 weeks, and the life-altering moments that came before and after his birth. She takes us into the day she realized he wasn’t moving, the surreal drive to the hospital, and the moment she saw his face — knowing instantly that he was both hers and gone. Lin reflects on the early days of grief while parenting her toddler son, the quiet and everyday ways she continues to honor Keelan, and the complicated emotions of her pregnancy after loss with her daughter, Logan. She speaks candidly about navigating fear, reclaiming her birth preferences, and the power of calling her stillborn son into the birth space of her rainbow baby. Today, Lin carries Keelan’s legacy into her work as a doula, walking alongside other parents facing the unimaginable.   We talk about: The sudden and heartbreaking loss of Keelan at 38 weeks The moment of meeting her son and feeling both love and loss Parenting a toddler while grieving a baby who isn’t coming home The quiet, everyday ways of honoring a baby after stillbirth The complexity of pregnancy after loss — holding hope and fear together Advocating for birth preferences after loss Welcoming her rainbow baby, Logan, and calling Keelan into that space Turning grief into purpose through bereavement doula work This episode is a tender, raw, and hope-filled reminder that grief and love can coexist — and that a baby’s legacy can live in the quietest moments. 🕊️ Keelan, this one is for you.   Get to Know Lin: Lin is a proud mom of three beautiful children and calls Brooklyn, NY home. In April 2023, she lost her middle baby, Keelan Paxton, at 38 weeks—a heartbreak that changed everything. In his honor, she founded A Little Peace, a doula practice in NYC dedicated to pregnancy after loss and bereavement care. Lin has found her life’s work in helping families who walk this path feel less alone. She finds joy in arranging Trader Joe's flowers, baking birthday cakes for her kids, and commiserating with fellow Brooklyn parents over a glass of wine (or three). You can connect with Lin at littlepeacedoula.com.    Connect with Lin: 📸 Instagram: @linyuan15 Little Peace Doula: @littlepeacedoula   Connect with Kristin: 📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca 🌈 The Haven - Pregnancy After Loss Support: thedoulalife.ca/the-haven — use code RAINBOW to save $100 🕊 RECLAIM -- The PAL Birth Course: thedoulalife.ca/reclaim -- use promo code: RECLAIM to save $100 📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life   If you enjoyed this episode of the podcast, please don’t forget to subscribe, rate and review– this helps get the show and resources mentioned into the hands of the women that need them! And please share it with someone who could use this kind of support. Your support means so much.

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